I often sit here wondering when my life changed. Was it a little at a time or all at once, I can't seem to remember. Which isn't surperising, since I really can't remember much of anything these days. Now don't get me wrong the best things that have ever happened to me have happened in these changes. I just wonder what I was thinking way back, when I could get up in the morning, have a shower, brush my teeth, eat breakfast(with no little hands trying to get a bit) and leave for the day to do what I needed or wanted to. How I most of had so much time on my hands, what did I do with all of it?

Now my life is blessed with a little boy that loves to jump all over me before I even open my eyes and a precious baby girl who thinks that waking ever 2 -3 hours is how it really should be done. I really can't remember back to having a shower alone(that I didn't have to fight for) and before noon, breakfast that I didn't have to share and places I could just get up and go to. My life has been filled with the fingerprints, mud spots, spills, dirty diapers, screams and cries of 2 little pieces of heaven. And although this time in my life is so NOT how I planned it, it is how my creater and father above did. He prepared me to love my precious ones with all my heart and soul, the same way he loves me. Even when I don't obey or I am kicking and screaming, he looks past all of that and loves me. I praise him for the heart he has given me to love my little ones.

Psalm 52:8
But I am like an olive tree flourishing in the house of God; I trust in God's unfailing love for ever and ever.